New Year, New Beginings

Not every year we are grateful for new beginings. We see the new year as a time for the continuation of bills, more money for back to school supplies, stress over filing taxes and the cold weather we recieve finally here in Texas. However, my grateful attitude towards the end of last year followed by my enthusiasum to continue working towards my goals has given me many blessings.

I have begun a new job working with children others have deemed bad or angry and finding new ways to work with them to achieve a heightened sense of self awareness and coping skills to handle those times we all get frustrated. I have a great many goals and wishes I want to come true this year and will continue working on them.

People ask me how I do this. How do I have the energy to keep moving every single day? This is just how I wake up. This is who I want to be and this is who I am always pushing to be. People wanted my enthusiasum in their classrooms when I was a sub. They wanted and needed someone with the ability to keep up with the younger kids, and someone young enough to bond with the older kids. I never came to school with a frown, I never showed my frustration with my students, unless it was absolutely warranted. And even then it was not a yelling match as I have seen other faculty members engage in with their students.

 

Try starting everyday with a smile and good attitude and keep people around you who will keep your mind in a positive attitude. I have a wonderful boyfriend who reminds me to be grateful for things I recieve and supports me in decisions I make. He is always there and wants to talk when I am upset even if I dont want to. I know he is there for me and I wouldnt trade him or my kids for anything. They keep me happy, which helps me to achieve my dreams.

 

Try it 🙂

 

 

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Continuity.

The things we do each day, the way we fill our time, the steps we take to accomplish a task, all of these are repeated on a daily basis. It is once said that routine makes us happy. However, they fail to tell us that we must have the right routine or the happiness will fade. If my routine was to buy drugs every week and crack out while my kids played around the house, never cleaned, and yelled at them for things beyond their control, I don’t think any happiness could survive in that way. So, we change.

My routine normally involves a few choice addictions such as my coffee and Facebook in the morning. However, I start noticing times where I seem to be always distracted with my phone and other objects and not distracted enough by my kids. I feel like a horrible mother after realizing we did nothing productive and I may have even ignored my children. So, we change.

How many times have you told yourself you are going to change and then never remember to do so later? I’m going to be calmer. I am going to be patient. I’m going to be better at yoga. Whatever it is, we only stick with it for 3-5 days before it is back to our same way. So, we change.

Using our phones as alarms to remind us of the things we need to do or remember each way is a fantastic idea. You can use your premade alarms and add descriptions to them telling your self to be calmer and more patient. Set alarms telling yourself to put the phone down and enjoy your children. Set screen time limits for yourself as well as your children. Set reminders to make them play outside.

Whatever you need you can do by allowing yourself to use resources to make changes and continuity with your life easier. Maybe routine does make us happy, we wont know until we actually have routines. So, we change.

 

Daily prompt – epitome

Prompt – Epitome

“Shut your mouth!” ….. “Why are you arguing with an adult?”

When I turned around, I knew she was the epitome of what was wrong with children and their teachers in these newer generations. This woman, who choose to serve her community by teaching children, was standing there screaming at him, while he had barely made an audible whisper.

Ok, I get it he was jumping in the hall, could have hurt someone including himself, but why are we screaming? We know nothing else to get the attention of thirteen year olds so we resort to the loudest machine possible on our bodies. There was no polite redirection first, no calling the student by name and showing them that you respect them enough to learn their name so he should respect you enough to at least turn around and listen. Just irate babbling from a supposed adult who was twenty five years older, at the very least, from this child. I was shocked and mortified. If we can not show calmness and strength how are we supposed to teach it to these children, and why are their parents not teaching it to them first. Schools care so much about testing and separating scores based on race rather than intelligence, that everyone overlooks the students and groups them only in categories, of going to pass and never going to pass students.

We need to re organize the way we approach students and our children so we can finally come together and have the ability to teach students rather than corralling them and just waiting for the bell to ring at 4.

Cleaning dance!

Cleaning can be such a wonderful activity.  I actually like getting up turning my tv to Pandora and just cleaning with my son.  Mostly we listen to toddler radio or my beatles station (based off the movie “across the universe”). It makes the day brighter and gives fun to a normally boring job. 

  It can even be exercise if done right.  Dance around while dusting or vacuuming! Or take breaks and dance to a song in between tasks,  or your favorite ones.  It’s always fun to stop and play hokey pokey :).  This gets the kids involved and makes better memories.  Kids will want to do chores and begin requesting them. 

Doing the chores helps teach our kids values ‘about’ life,  doing chores while dancing teaches them the value ‘of’ life and the joy you can experiencelb doing simple things that at first seem a bore. 

Live and love life. Today is the day to start. 

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Waiting…

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Someone took my heart
And held it in their hands
I took it back
But never made amends

Now I’m wishing you well
While wanting you, my dear
Please come back
It’s lack of love I fear

I’m drawn to you
Like bee to pollen
I’m missing you
Since the day I had fallen

Now I wait so patiently
Till the day I see you again
You will always be the one
I wait for you my friend.

Sometimes falling in love is the hardest thing in the world. Sometimes it doesn’t work out but you can’t get over the feeling…ever. You said I didn’t love you, that you were just an idea. But I loved you more than you ever knew. My body aches and wishes for your touch. My dreams make you seem real. I’ll never ever get over you, that is just the way I feel.

Falling backwards..

We are only human. Sometimes we fall backwards and return to the way things were rather than moving forward. As long as we realize we are moving backwards and are able to analyze the reasons, we can block those reasons to help ourselves get back on the path.

Just had a brand new baby girl! Well I’ve been trying to stay positive and my son has done wonders with helping and caring for her. However he still does four year old things like being loud and not paying attention to things. I started yelling again. He is four why should I feel the need to yell at him, ok sometimes it involves his sister and I’m terrified of him hurting her on accident, but I need to be calmer and realize that yelling may make him stop wanting to help and love on her. I do not want that to happen.

Counting and breathing need to become my best friends again. I am only lucky that I can see why I’m yelling and predict future consequences. Otherwise I may be lost in the void and continue to do the wrong things. I even encourage my son to help me know when I am being unreasonable and getting too loud. This way he has some control over what happens 🙂 I feel it will give him confidence in talking to me and telling me “how it is ” later in life. I do not want a child who hides everything from me because they are afraid I’ll get upset or mad.

My son helps me when I fall backward and we all need support. It’s like peer review. We sometimes can’t catch our own mistakes and we need others to tell us. Let’s keep moving forward!!

A New Year????

“Resolutions” – why do people have these when we all know that they won’t be lasting longer than a month or two? Is this some quick fix way to make the rest of our lives as acceptable as possible?

We rely on these resolutions to help us fix unwanted aspects of our lives. Smoking, dieting, exercising, or even a number of personal things.

Instead of making resolutions we should be making real changes. One of my changes was to be better at keeping in touch with people especially those I lose touch with for years at a time. I wrote my first letter in a long time and am sending it tomorrow in the mail. Starting with something so simple like writing one person a letter at a time is one way I am increasing my communication skills while undertaking my goal. Even if the person does not respond, I have tried and can then proceed to contact another person and another.

Small steps are needed to achieve our goals, big grand gestures normally fall short and use up a lot of energy. Writing this blog for myself and reminding myself to stay positive are two more things I am working on changing. Key words here are “working on”. I am not stating I will be a better person this year I am stating that I am working on becoming better. Changes take time and ease us into new ideas.

My mantra for 2015 : stay positive and keep moving forward!
Lets make changes we can actually achieve and together we will strive to be better.

Sometimes we need to let it out!!!

It’s good for everyone if we don’t bottle everything up! We need to work on our communication skills and have daily and weekly scheduled talks with people, especially people who are driving your crazy 🙂

I had a very long and possibly hurtful talk with my bf. I felt he was seriously slacking with the responsibilities that now rest upon his shoulders. However, during the convo I made sure to try and tell him that I was still supportive of him and I didn’t think him worthless. I just needed him to know I don’t like his job and the way it keeps everyone apart. If we had all our bills paid and didn’t have things to worry about it may be different but we don’t.

Remember our significant others are people too and we all do the best we can with what we are given. Do not put all the blame or responsibility on them. Be in a relationship together and give it all you got. Not 50/50 but a whole 100/100 (trey and Leah marriage advice).

Hate does not Live here

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Today I really wanted to tell someone I hate them and what they are doing to me. I had to stop and breathe and realize that the situation was in my control as well and it is not entirely their fault. I can not blame one person for my life going down the hill right now. Once I fall to the bottom, unless I get stopped on the way down and helped back up, there is no where left to go again except back up the hill!

Anytime we feel overwhelmed by a situation we need to check our reactions to the event and find out why we feel the way we do about it. It can be hard to place some or all the blame on ourselves because we love to follow a theory that anything good is because of us and anything bad is because of someone else. This is NOT true. We should not hate ourselves for getting in the position and we should not hate our partners. Turn the situation around as best you can.

Having a child makes the days so much better and you really have to focus on how you are feeling and reacting to situations. I could not walk around angry at other people all the time or sad because I hate myself for what I have done. It doesn’t work. Our children see more than we know and they react to it as well.

Lets keep the world happy, hate can not live here in my life anymore! Love Your Life 🙂